Here it is, my new painting “The Birthday”. It was not the painting that I set out to paint, but was the one that came forth…..I´m obviously still painting feelings. This one is about sadness and abandonment. It´s about old feelings, childhood pain and for me this painting expresses that very well.
There is something very deep and especially poignant about childhood pain. Seen through adult eyes it is often distorted but the intensity remains the same. I have allowed that distortion in some of the shapes in this painting. The slightly surreal feeling also speaks of memories almost too far away to know. Memories that can only be expressed through art, or music.
For those of you who know the reality of childhood trauma of any sort, I hope you will be able to see something of that in this work; my feeling is that it will be recognisable to anyone who has those experiences. It will, I´m sure mean many things to different people, but at the very least I hope it raises awareness of the life long effects of early pain.
A strange painting, maybe, but I´m pleased I painted it, and it says something important to me. I really feel that we only rarely see these sad sort of feelings shown in art, in an abstract kind of way. Somehow for me, paintings of children with a tear or two on their cheeks doesn´t really go far enough in expressing this very unique sort of pain.
Maybe it´s the season to be thinking about things like this. It´s cold today and even the sun has failed to make an appearance. Probably because yesterday I was saying how the sun nearly always shines here. Obviously tempted fate just a little too far; its miserable right now.
I´m off to my quilting group in a few hours, and I´m quite pleased I am. This painting has been draining to create, and I want to come back to now, which is really the only time we have. I plan to make it peaceful and enjoyable by working on my quilt with my craft group and chatting in spanish for a while. I know I´ll return home relaxed and contented again.
Have a good day everyone,